it's been an awesome week back home. now i miss home terribly. ): although i stayed home everyday. still. i miss home. cuz i was never alone those days. woke up with bfast on the table, and a brother to disturb who would accompany me for lunch everyday. the noises around makes me feel warm and not alone.
at first i regret going back cuz i will not be able to study at home. BUT i did. however, the progress was VERY VERY VERY SLOW. =.= well at least somewhat did kan?
now that i'm back at the desert or Kampar, i feel lost. it's so quiet here. because i don't live with my friends (long story) and my house mates aren't back yet.
i thought i would've gotten used to the leaving home thing already. it's been 2 years plus. but apparently. i don't know why. it became more intense. probably due to examinations coming up. i haven't been preparing very well. obviously not a good sign. been slacking in the comfort of home. but glad i came back a day earlier. emotional breakdown a day before examinations is not good. fyi: 1st paper starts on Monday.
anxiety, fear, nervous, stress + compiled tears + home sick = emotional breakdown
there's alot of things i regretted. and also alot of things i'm glad i did it.
well that's life right. what's life without ups and downs?