mixed.

今天，我想哭了。
Today, I felt like crying.

that's the only thing i wanted to blog about. Feeling rather down today. all i wish for now is your companionship BUT. you're occupied. so its alright.

I'm afraid of the future honestly speaking. Everything seems to pass so quickly. soon I'll be graduating and moving on to working life. sis texted me to lemme know she's leaving on the 18th of June. ): which furter added to the already gloomy day of mine.

this feeling is DEFINITELY due to haha spending too much alone time in the room and not studying. blame my awesome study lifespan of 20 minutes.

Islamic Banking midterm tomorrow and I haven't studied much. anxious breakdown. but its just a midterm. don't know why i'm stressed out. bleh.

been addicted to this song lately. heart the meaning behind it.



oh. read a really nice post by missycheerio. very inspiring. (:* click here for the post.

enough whining. back to books.

i miss. comfort food.

one helluva crazy valentine's

how did you spend valentine's day?

candle light dinner?

receiving a bunch of roses?

when I was younger, valentine's day seems to be something special and requires special preparations. but. as I grow older, valentine's day is just another day. Its been two years, two months and two weeks, my boyfriend, Leslie and I got together. the first two years we decided to just let it be although it occasionally became a 'tantrum-to-throw' topic on my side. HEH. also because to him, valentine's day is just another day. takkan you only love your partner more on valentine's day right??

so this year. valentine's day took a twist.

since its public holiday the next day, boyf decided to come to Kampar, to do the noble job of spending some precious time with his beloved princess - me. *shy. :P

yeap. this came together with him. (:*

it's rather unusual of him to be doing this as I'd complain. gifts on v'days are expensive!! oh well. he still know best that I would rather the money spent on food than gifts. LOL

it's our 1st valentine's together, and two gifts. :D

I however, on the other hand, didn't prepare anything. :(  [read on lahhh..]

instead of an expensive meal over candle dim lights, we had ours by the walkway under the street lamp.

guess where?

if you guessed MAMAK then congrats!.

his 'Risotto ala Daging Merah' and my 'Pasta ala Goreng'

LOL. not having an expensive Italian meal doesn't mean that you can't create your own right. ?? *wink

the gift. music box. *loves

parts of the details i loike!!. 

there were some issues that came up on my graduation trip and boyf stayed to help us solve it. he was suppose to leave after dinner due to next day's a working day. BUT. it took 2 hours to solve the bookings etc etc. it past midnight already and its not nice of me to let him drive back alone. 

since my class is late afternoon the next day, I, volunteer to follow him back to pj then back to kampar alone next morning. LOL. how noble you must be thinking. BUT i dont do these often. must do something in return maaaaah. HEHE. 

minus the rush, everything was awesome. 

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

things you'd do for love. (:

best of 2010

2010 has been a good year. with not a quite balanced ups and down. but still. I'm satisfied. how was yours?

we're suppose to look into the future and leave our past behind. however, a lil reminiscing about the year is quite worth it.

Sunflowers always makes me happy. 

this is gonna be a loooong post if I'm gonna post everything. so just bits and pieces.

the beginning of the year is awesome as usual with birthday parties. 

housemates. we've gotten closer already and lovin it. 

1st ever reunion dinner with classmates.

as much as the group as became much smaller, dinner was still awesome. 

dirty birthday parties. <3 

chinese new year family group photo!. love loves.

last day of class group photo. 

Penang trip with shun, chiahui, yeekeat and winnee.

surprise and oh so dirty party which was memorable. 

wesak day. finally back there after being away for so long. 

tons of memories there.

met smashpop and bryan for the 1st time

awesome breakfast. 

haha. we were closest at this time.

went for clinique star tour with Felicia and Xiao Hui. 

Gua Tempurung with boyf and his family. 

there's always the 1st time to everything. and i think i was real brave then. :P

Genting with classmates. 

my birthday dinner with foundation gang. hehe. 

birthday + mid-autumn festival celebration with classmates

met new friends. (:

went to hardrock hotel. 

speaking of. two trips to penang? LOL

loving the concept of this photo. 

yeah its another 1st time. fun indeed. :D

Cameron with high school buddies. 

oh it 1st time AGAIN. LOL. 

graduation photo shoot.

fav photo. (:*

moral campaign.

Xiannie's 21st birthday

there isn't a specific photo throughout the year that I love love it. and of course. there are alot of parts in the year 2010 where the photos are not posted. and it'll remain in my heart. :P 

2010 has alot of fun times. why? I went to two hills within the same month!. twice to cameron and genting, once. went up to Penang twice and once to Johor. I also did things i never thought i'll do. for real!. LOL. there was alot of 1st times too. and i'm glad i'm growing up. but a lil too fast? haha. 

lastly, he is still the loved one. (:

as for 2011. I don't anticipate much. because I've already gotten a preview before. just this time. it's gonna be even longer and harder.