i just named xian si-complicated. why that name? cuz she's having yet anoter gender crisis. (: please laa remain as a girl okayyy. xoxo.


i miss these people. ):

i decided not to name this cuz it's of mixtures again. hee.

that younger brother of mine got a THIRD place for his 1500. hah!. good job bro. proud sial. my effort of waking up at 7am to teman you jog is not wasted. because you did not really train. haha. swimming is not considered as training cuz swimming is NOT running.
but that fella did not do well for his malaria swim something something the day before sports day. came back with a shieldtox. to kill the mosquitos. lol.


the brother of mine.

since i'm like damn freee lately..
i need retail therapy. but low on $$.
sponsor anyone?
*wink*


once again. why laa always treaten me? kns laaa.

Ronnie o'ron
yinli

sure u not goin tmr??
yes i'm not goin tomorrow
haih..
whyy?
u la
haih...
why me again?
one sit will be empty tmr
LoL:P
lol
i know.. put a teddy bear there to replace me. (:
hahaha

just incase you're wondering. ron , kc and szuat li's going malacca to visit xi shun n chia hui.
even treaten to cancel if i'm not going. but i didnt go in the end. haha.
retail therapy is obviously more important. especially when mom's around. hee.

one more thing.





the way i are ya'll..
even the teacher said it was good.
bangga weih. spot me!.

btw this video is dated all the way back during cny.

enjoy!.

100th post

this is gonna be an emo post. so if you're in a goood mood today or at least now, click on the 'x' at the top right corner of the page. or just scroll down to the next post. which might be happier.

was browsing through someone's blog a while ago. something came to my mind.

was looking through old photos. the same something came to my mind.

everytime i walk pass that thing in the room. the something comes to my mind.

everytime i search the drawers for accessories. the something seems to stand out.

everytime i pay for an item or anything. the something comes to my mind.

sometimes i wonder why did i trust you.

even thought of why i fell for you.

i shouldnt have put my trust on you leaving you to break it.

everything you said or did leaved a mark. whether or not it will disappear?

i dont know.

suddenly things changed.

the distance came after that.

i never seen you

neither heard from you.

reacalling the last time was long time ago

not even a hello.

*walks pass*

dries up the tears and that's it.

it's up to you to think that i'm talking bout you.
yes it's up to you. i dont bloody give a damn.

last but not least,

i'm glad i'm leaving.

dance is FUN killing my ass.

i feel good nanenanenanenaa..

of randomness and hailats laughters.

i went to kampar yesterday to check out on where to stay. suppose to already have one already but the story is looong. and am not blogging bout it. cuz it's saddening.

oh so yea. kc drove chiahui, david, xi shun and i there. went straight to campus to look see. chia hui did a great job of making a lie. haha.

kc: eh everyone take out your ID.

ch: *checks wallet* eh i didnt bring.!.

all of us: what?!.

me: dun play laa.

ch: really!!. okay wait i know what to do.

*takes kc's id and went out of the car to guard house*.

few minutes later..

ch: okay lets go.

*kc drives pass the guard house*

kc: what you told the guard?

ch: exam!

memang berskill la laki-laki tu.

so we got ourselves into the campus. i like the peacefulness there. but it was damn hot!. maybe 40 degrees there. went to the office to get some info bout the houses. then took a tour to one of the blocks that has people.

every other people in utar is having exam except for us. buahaha. the 'exam aura' was strong from outside. but who cares!. we went in to so called 'add stress'. *evil laugh*

then someone oi-ed me. guess who!. yann shun.. uber random. he has to get into exam hall soon so i continue exploring. as we were deciding where to go next, a rather familiar car stop at the parking lot. guess who again! kaishan and vincent. who was running late to exam. smart laa. 230 exam reach at 220. lol.

toilets. of quantity and okay fine. quality, just a lil. at least better than those in pj campus.

off we go to westlake. where the houses are. saw and picked the single room at the 1st floor. as that was the best option. imagine reaching home after a long day of classes drop dead tired and having to walk up two floors to reach your room. no way.. price wasnt really good but at least i get to have my own toilet. (:

later went to explore the housing areas outside to see if there's any better pricing. saw one double-storey house. interested but pricey and i cant be staying at a house with only 1 guy. mom wouldnt allow anyway. so does his mom. the guy even thought i was his gf! lol. cuz only both of us have no where to stay.

drive drive drive talk talk talk laugh laugh laugh.

both of us decided to just book a house at westlake. the house is called tsing hua. new phrase so it's not ready yet. wth!. we hav to stay at a temp hostel which is above shoplots. might coose another place but book first just incase.

went to hav 'curry chicken bread' before leaving. stop over at tapah after getting out of the trunk road. once again. guess who i met? sarah's allen. allen low if i'm not mistaken. haha. the guys was like 'your network is big.. such small place also can meet a friend. ' it's called jodoh. the world is small laa okayy.

left tapah at 7 reach dj at 835. i was sleeping cuz i'm tired laa. was woken up by the guys asking which way to go. subang or kl. i know they were speeding but din expect to be home soo fast.

so photos..

david, me, chia hui n xi shun.

kc. (:

regarding the title. somehow everything was related to hailat. so it's random which eventually made us laugh..

to xian: i really was just kidding about the smoking thing. you know i'm not a fan of smokers rite.

cant believe i'm leaving. joy or sorrow i dont know..

it's overrr..

i'm now in a relaxed, rejoice and relieve mood. glad it's all over. (: aku menyukai finance laa. manage to finish the paper. hope that i got all the formulas and working correct. okayy. i shall NOT talk bout exams anymore.

since it was the last day i was ever gonna meet some of them, we went old town after exam then sg buloh for dinner and curve.

dinner was great. damn!. it's was friggin cheap. yet taste delicious. i will wanna go back there. haha. was being really good as i didnt take a single sip of the beer. (: *applause*

after dinner supposingly to go clubbing but changed to movie and in the end. we went to heaven. uh. the cafe over at curve, behind sakae sushi. the live band there was good. we didnt really wanna leave until the performance ended.

it's great hangging out with them laa. everything has been related to the movie ' forbidden kingdom' ever since tuesday. uh. crouching tiger, spanking monkey. lol.

hhhmm i might start to smoke someday. at least it's better than being a 2nd hand smoker. lol.
i was just kidding.

photos.

darling sueyong and i.

i love her.

xue ni, milky and i. (: *loves*

shirley, me and leslie's finger.

more photos soon!.

be going to kampar later.

one down. one more to go.

tuning to: the veronicas- when it all falls apart.

cost accounting is FINALLY over. woohoo!. damn!. cant believe i've been studying that same subject during the weekends and cant answer the 1st question. knnwtfmch. i remember seeing that question. but couldnt remember how to find that dumbass variable cost. formulas didnt help either. the question is related. so without VC cant find FC then the BEP and the MOS plus graph. dang! the whole question was basically uh. EMPTY. graph is like easy marks. but graph without figures = sympathy marks. *prays hard* hopefully question 2 and 3 can earn me at least a C. i hav no confident at all for question 4. i must have confidence that i can pass. haha. just to comfort myself.

uh. sooo frustrated.

okay. enough of costing. time to get finance fit into my brains. havent touched that at all.

but before that.

happy birthday
see chia hui who self proclaim very lucky to be born on that day.
and my sister!. haha. you're old you know. buahaha.

will post about FORBIDDEN KINGDOM its a good movie. (: and chiahui's bday celebration most prolly after i come back from trip to kampar on friday.

oh and xian. one more day. sorry to keep you waiting. i give you moral support. * doing the heart to heart reception gesture* sending moral support.......

moral support sent. (: *hugs*

finance oh finance..

so till then.

vitagen makes me happy. <3

oh my gawwddd.... cost accounting is just sooo damn sickening!!!!.. damn!.
exam is in approx three days time TOMORROW!!!. and i'm not ready. shyt!.

WISH ME LUCK! (:

study week.

study week is meant for studying. but. the truth is. i have not been studying.

i have two papers. cost accounting on the 22nd and finance on 24th.
i know nuts about cost accounting. the worst part is the chapter i SUCCESSFULLY mastered in the subject is not coming out for finals because it came out during mid terms. wtf.

*sigh*

anyhow. i will pass! yes i will!. (: what?! have to have confidence in myself rite. *fingers crossed*

the previous which is also practically the last karaoke session with my classmates reminded me loads of the old times. every semester we'll head to redbox @ sunway for karaoke. sang almost the same song everytime.
god knows what are we gonna do in kampar where entertainment = zero. hmm fishing perhaps? or random picnic by the lake. lol.
some of them who wont be going to kampar. gonna miss you guys weih.

i got over some uh. i shall name it 'unhappy' times. but this i couldn't really get over as it came back during every karaoke session. it's been quite sometime but still. i'm in love with it this song.

*double sigh*

this song is in chinese anyway.
song title: 祝我生日快乐 (wish me happy birthday)-direct translation

i'm alright with it already seriously. (:

just reminiscing it.

wedding photos.

not my wedding of course!. just there for performance.


us and the couple.


the ladies all dressed up.


and another one.


william, monkey and guo liang.


ngiam ngiam. (:

not much photos were taken that day. but overall. it was fun.

itendstonight

i know it looks abit retarted but oh well. thanks guys for the wonderful time. the last day of our foundation year came so quickly. it's gonna take me ages to load all the photos so yea. it's easier this way. (: hearts.

alittlesomethingthatwentaway

everytime i decided not to blog, tons of things happens.

4 days ago. tat hong, joey and jia hao called me out to yum cha. they came all the way from APIIT. gosh sooo random.. joey got zha by his friend lester and the scene was damn funny. i dun really get the things they talk about cuz i'm not really close to them. but overally still fun laa. as quoted from tat hong. (:

small world laa. joey knows joyce who is in my lecture class. lester knows leslie who is in my class and has a twin brother called lester. (:

i always loves friday. why? class ends early on fridays. so. we went wong kok @ss2 for breakfast/yum cha. of all places. after droping the others at lrt station as they wanna go klcc for isetan sales, KC and i headed to 1u for movie. called ron to come along.

we watched 'a long pte ltd'.

seriously that movie was heck of a good one.



after movie, teman ron for grocery shopping. it looked damn wrong. 2 guys and a girl. it's like temaning two gays as quoted from KC. rushed home straight after receiving call from dad saying that my maternal grandmother passed away and mom's on her way home.



settled my paternal grandmother's dinner and off the remaining 4 of us to giant to get the things my mom asked us to get. it was in and out of giant and tesco since then. dad and i was tired that we fell asleep while waiting for my turn for dental checkup.


she passed away. her crematorium is later today and i'm home. due to some uh. i shall say 'pantang'. super long story so i'm not gonna go all over it again.

---

she looks pretty there. after all the makeups and dressing up. better than when i visited her on wednesday. she doesnt need to suffer anymore so it's better for her.

rest in peace.

a smiles a frown turned upside down.

mid terms are over. which means. finals in 3 weeks time. UH-OH. not good.
OMB. i need to study.
thou i only have two subjects.

no more procratinations.

just finished my finance assignment. left with costing. boohoo.
due date: monday. shyt.

seriously. i do not really want to go to kampar. but i'm excited to go there. sigh. my mom and sis was like listing what i need over there but i was canceling most of the things on the list. i'm gonna miss everything here.
but look at the brighter side!. i'm gonna be with my kaima and kaipa. frequent visit to ipoh then i guess. *loves*

according to xian. march is emo month. i soo agree.

as a tribute to my most 'dedicated' brotherhood, i decided to post their photos. *as if they're gonna read this*
thou they mean people, but it's so nice of them to cheer me up most of the time. bringing me everywhere they go. good food!. teaching me the bad good stuffs.
see. i'm angelic. lol.




ronald and xi shun.


xi shun and chia hui.
they always like to put me in the middle. cuz i'm small.



KC. who wants a decent picture of him here. (:

you girls out there.. fyi: ronald and chia hui is taken. *wink*


i was listening to some of those ancient songs at the bottom of my playlist. and i came across one of my all time favourite. 'happy go lucky' by steps. (:

the world only sees me smiling
but they dont know the truth every night.
cuz there's where i hide my sorrow.

disguise and deny

i'm soo sorry for not updating you blog. do not hate me for that. (:

once again. another hectic week has past.

i almost missed my finance mid term paper. went for TWO movies. spent hell lotsa money. attended barbeque party. and killer dance training.

thanks to my escorts/ driver/ bodyguards, chia hui, xi shun and ronald. three of them were finding any possible opportunity to tease me.

shun almost got us all late for exam. exam was at 2.30pm and he told us 3.30. we were still eating at ss3 at 2.10pm. manage to rush in and not be the last to enter the exam room. cant deny that ron has skills. (:

movies!. yea it was emo day and i had to watch movie. it's school holiday and i dislike it. the tickets all ran out rast. so we couldnt watch the movie we wanted to watch. ended up with MINOTAUR and FLOOD. i would rate minotaur as a low budget cheap movie, 1.5/5. as for flood. um. kinda boring. it's like the remake of tsunami.. except that it's hitting london 2.5/5.

spending money on useless movies. goshh. saddening weih.

i like food. organized a barbeque party for the the temple people. it was fun as we had barbequed lala and prawn!. had our very own chef preparing the food for us. not forgetting karaoke, sparkling juices and surprise birthday cake for monkey and zi hui. HAPPY BIRTHDAY you both.
due to lack of rest and water. i'm suffering from sore throat now. boohoo.

the dance teacher taught us more basic dance moves. which means more ballet!. almost broke our legs after that. 'you guys need more streching!' but. it's fun. and worth it.

yes i know.

but still i'm gonna deny it.

as it just wont work.

of mixtures again.

to xian.

remedy to be nerdy is to feel nerdy, act nerdy, dress nerdy and eventually be nerday.

oh well. at least i've been studying that way and it helped. (:
i for once finish my finance tutorial without skipping a single question. *bangga*
but during tutorial, 1st question wrong d. lol. sad case betul.

anyhow anyway. aku went karaoke and golfing. whee~

oh and. thanks for listening to my rants.
iheartyou.
imissyoulaa.


golf is fun. (:
tennis is great too!.
basketball is soo yesterday. lol.



happy birthday to.
hui pin. who's in tarc. *5th*
xi shun. whom i always ask to take my stuffs *6th*
kaishan. i'll see you in kampar. *7th*
wei keat. whom i see everyday *8th*
chin hing. currenly somewhere the other side of earth. *8th*
leslie. randomly looks for me to chat*10th*
jun liang. whom i always ffk*11th*
monkey. caretaker? *16th*
chloe. who's in labis now *16th*
wilson. who's in tarc too!. *17th*
jie cheng. my sizzling hot dance partner. *18th*
winnee. the bok. pretty classmate of mine. *18th*
wen bing. sweet classmate of mine. *18th*
desmond. always showing of his teeth. *19th*

do let me know if i missed out any. shooo many march babies.

photo of the day.

-before.. i presume-




-after-

*taken in extreme park*

pinky's skirt!. *inside joke* not like she reads this.

retarted is the new normal.

i have to nerdify myself. any advice? motivation please?

was attending cost accounting lecture. and. i dunno anything. ): spending most of the time trying to understand it. shooo hard to get it straight. mid term is next week and assignment due in two weeks time. *SIGH*

not to forget financial accounting. worst still!.

maybe i havent been studying for a month. till now still trying to fit myself into the study mood. which i quite desperately needed to.

i dont like me timetable. afternoon classes are making me sleepy. *yawn*

been sleeping more and more and more in the afternoon lately. as there's just too much nightmares at night. me no likey.

going to hospital tomorrow again. it's just another almost routine to wake up early.

if you ask me if i love him,

i'd lie.

round and round it goes.

so basically this is what i did during the weekends of february.



to june. (:



cyun is just soo cute. <3


thanks for being there.
*kai en and i*



positions for dance.



sann's open house.
*shuenz, yinxie, cyun, me and mun yi*


after performance.
*sann and i*
the photos are kinda dark. 2mp but no flash. what do you expect.

there's lots of photos taken that day but it's not with me. so yea.


fireworks!. *loves*



first day of sem 3. happy birthday lin.!
*me, shirley, shuei lin and grace*


vain pot whom i love but hate. and i. breakfast at megah. after sending grandma for surgery.


the shirt says it all.

hmm. i started naming my shirt. i have penguin, happy, teddy, and APPLE.
realised i hav skills in makeup. lol. just the simple ones laa.
chores are making me tired. but burn fats and kills time.

i'm having 2 subjects this sem. chilling as it seemed. like wtf. 2 subjects!
everyday, classes starts earliest at 12noon latest at 1pm. except fridays.
shortest 2 hours, longest 3 hours.
cost accounting and finacial accounting is soo not easy.
accounts!. is my weak subject. *i do not like accounts*
mid term is n 2 weeks time.
assignment in 3 weeks time.
then finals is in 6 weeks time.
off i go to kampar then.


end~

IF

IF

is a powerful word.

IF only he was a little later,

IF only she was a little earlier.

things could be different.

IF only they know and realised it a little earlier,

things could be different once again.

IF only you were there,
things will be different.

IF maintaining it would be so hard,

why bother starting?

IF it's so hard to tell,

why bother telling?

IF you would listen,

things wont end up the way it is now.

(:

addicted to emo songs.

<3

so what now?!

i've been fucking emo the whole week thou i dont seem to look like i am. as i always do.
got ditched a zillion times this week and it's shooo shickening. everything seems to be the wrong place at the wrong time. boohoo

i classify washing toilets as one of my way to release my emo-ness.
i wanna cry but nothing comes out. it's not the correct day anyway.
it's performance day tomorrow and gosh. i duno if i can do it well. i wanna look goood.

examination results are out. and that's NOT the reason i'm feeling emo. *smiles*
it was satisfaction. although i bloody screwed up my sociology. but i scored higher for socio compared to mass comm.

thanks KC for temaning me almost the whole day. saved me from being bored at home.
and then Kent. was suppose to go yum cha because of your mistake. but i forgive you. haha. i was tired already. so decided to stay home. thanks for coming over. btw. you still owe me. (:
not forgetting keng chuan for helping me in dinner!.

back to the topic.

alright. i like things the way it is now. i'm happy with it. minus all the issues. which i still can handle it. at the moment. do not try to take that away from me i'm warning. i'm coping great with everything.

so what?

do i look like i fuckin give a damn ?

who the hell you think you are?

get a life laa.

still in the midst of celebration

basically what i did during chinese new year.
had my weekend nicely spent being holy. (:


offering muh-nee to the god. and obviously. the one in yellow is my poserific brother.
we lost count the amount of 'money' there. as grandma was the one who folded them.
lets say. estimated bout 2000++?..


the fire was hot hot. almost gonna telan the tree and wayar.


grandma at dong zen temple. she loves the pictures which had natural colours on it.
totally not painted on. they say it's becuz the prayers is done there. after i dont know how many chants done, somehow someway. the colours end up at the correct place.


MBPJ open house. me and kai en with the swimmers. and their moms.


both of us with the moms.


the stingray swimmers n i.

all the best to them for mssss starting today.



spent most of my time standing in an 3 inches high shoe with it's platform in the middle. the same as those you see in chinese traditional palace movies. waiting for some minister with no time management. gosh. so what if you're a vvip? late for an hour and left less than half n hour later. jeez.

went to pamelyn's place for dinner later on. had lots n lots of food though i was exhausted.

gotta get going now. suppose to be at work now but dad couldnt sent me there in the morning. so i'm going only in the afternoon.

so there shouldn't be anymore updates till next week as there's another crash course for dance performance this weekend.

to till then. (:

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!.

gosh. i was standing outside my office block after work today. n i saw like super alot of people / couples walking with bouquet of flowers.. soo sweet. (:

and yes. i'm home okay.. i have no date. alright. nothing very surprising about that laa. *wink*

well. i gtg now. hav to help prepare for prayers tonight.

definately gonna wake up with dark circles. lol..


toodles~